just an update... will post exciting photos and things later

(Ry's left, mine right)

hello..first off it was was really cool reading all your responses to my last post thanks for sharing your perspectives:)
How is everybody's Halloweens going? Lots of people probably went to parties on the weekend, some people may be doing fun things tonight too. If you have kids, are you taking your kids out trick or treating? or going to the malls? I like the idea of going to a big bon fire tonight. We are probably going to stay home though. The is a big bonfire in our neighborhood we may decide to go...or stay home and watch Halloween some more...its been like a Halloween marathon over at our house! We are for sure going to pass out candy! I hope lots of kids come to our house. We even put up some decorations. It may look a little sad though ....we could have been a lot more creative with our decorating but still I'm proud of our effort...maybe next year we will get some orange xmas light and scary music. I want to find scary something on tv and put speakers out the door tonight.
I was trying to convince ry to dress and as a woman and me a man but hes not going for it.hehehe Im gonna put the M&m costume back on and Ry's going to ahhh put on baseball stuff and be a psychotic fan.
On the weekend I went to Celeste's and Amy's and Littlebird's place for a Halloween party.. It was fun. thanks again you guys:) She posted some photos too! go check Celeste's site and I'll try post some soon too.

What if it grew more and more each day until you are afraid to leave your house?

What if we all talked to ALL our friends online? Could we eventually have ourselves socializing more online rather than in person? Maybe you would sorta develop an alternate personality...like an online personality and then your regular original personality. Are you different online then they are offline? Or maybe you appear different. Maybe you are the same BUT people's perceptions of you vary and that makes you SEEM different but maybe you feel like you are being you in both situations.

I realize that everybody blogs for many different reasons and each to their own...blogging is a great creative outlet, a way to meet people and to have discussions. Could be somebody's way to share photography and art or to keep family and friends undated on things, to journal/scrapbook, share opinions, and bullshit about random stuff.

When online, r you more yourself than offline cause you are saying what's in your mind and you are not watching another's reaction to what you said? When online, talking on msngr. or blogging, U may have no idea and less concern so u continue on and on....I don't know if this makes sense but I will continue on cause its my blog and I can't see anybodies reactions so I will continue on and on and on even if I am boring you. Cause I don't know if I am boring you or not and I never will. That's nice for you cause you don't have to worry about hiding your boredomeness reading what I have to say...You could either leave or just shake your head at me and read anyway. That's a good thing to some probably.

ah well anyway..What if people turned into this alternate personality(your original one eventually wears away) because you became dependent completely on your computer for socializing? What if it grew more and more each day until you are afraid to leave your house?Afraid to talk to people to their faces. I doubt that would ever happen. That would suck though. This is how my mind works when Im wide awake and Ry has to go to bed early for work in the morning. He has to get up round 4am. Poor guy..I am not a morning person I couldn't do it often.

Anyway,

Nobody would enjoy life anymore if it was an indoor, on the computer to socialize, kinda life. Its weird....aaaaahahahahahah imagine that....a planet full of a billion people all who basically live indoors. And eventually at your job there are more and more machines working and less team work....less social interectivness..welcome into my weird brain. Everybody have a good night, day or whatever you are about to do:)

Ry's dream

Ryan told me he had a dream that he was holding a little girl that was our baby daughter. weird and really cute... maybe it means something

Lisa Marie Young

Lisa Marie Young went missing from Nanaimo, B.C. on June 30th, 2002. For some reason she popped into my head today. I began to feel nauseous thinking about the unimaginable pain a parent must goes through after losing a child. And to never know what happened to your own child...It's so sad. It's so tragic. Parents should never have to go through the loss of a child its unnatural and unfair.. I can't even begin to empathize with Lisa's parents and the other people who were close to her...not to mention all the other families dealing with similar situations. I'm sorry for talking about something so sad but I just thought I might as well tell you about her, seeing that miracles do happen right? and hey, you just never know. My friend Allison Crowe wrote a song dedicated to Lisa, please listen to it if you get the chance and also if you'd like check out a site dedicated to finding Lisa. I did not know Lisa personally. I spoke to her once at a houseparty when I was 16 and I saw her face around school and the neighborhood when I was kid. You could tell she had a gentle soul.

Lisa's Song
Composed by Allison Crowe

I want to be the one
To say that I found you safe
And held you in my arms
I want anyone else in the world
To tell me
That they did too
And took you home

Across the field and to your door
And said, hey baby it’s cool,
There’s no reason to be scared anymore.
Took you home
And held you in, held you in, held you in.

Just stay home
Don’t come outside to play
Circumstance beyond control
I feel so helpless
Mind is racing and breaking
Me in to a million pieces
Because I can’t

Take you home
Across the river and to your door
Take you home and
Cut through the darkness
You don’t have to cry anymore
Take you home
And hold you in, hold you in, hold you in.

Take you home
Across the sea and to your door
Take you home
But I’m so scared
That home isn’t here anymore
Take you home
And hold you in
Through the nightshade and under the stars
And hold you in...

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Botanical Beach shots

I love you Bailey (Leah took these on Fri, Oct. 20th)

Spidey web pics my dad just took this morning...pretty neat!

a photo from the gazillion I took at Botanical Beach the other day

home for my split and its very cold and rainy... Im almost done with it..Im ready to see you again Mexico

I am posting just to move that last post down a bit...I don't like negativity on my blog for too long...but now i dont have much to say.. ho hum hmmmmmmmmmmmm....talking to leah on msn and just got home from work. I have to go back to work in a few hours. Then Im going to Leah's for a sleepover and we are gonna french braid eachothers hair, eat muchies, have pillow fights, and bake... actuallly by the time I get there we may change our minds and wanna go to bed cause we are old grandmas now and go to bed at 8pm lol... anywho I am staying there tonight so we can hang out all day tomorrow... no point in me driving back and forth back and forth. My throat feels a little sore...I hope Im not gettin sick and I really don't wanna pass anything along to miss B. Its real cold outside....brrrrrrrrrr.. I wanna fly away south..yes already... My mom, dad, Sister Sah, Jay, and the O'ster are going to Hawaii in Jan. I am jealous! I am excited for u guys..but of course I wanna be there...maybe we'll win some money.

ps If you would like..go check out some of my photos in my buzznet..Botanical Beach is real pretty( I explained a bit a couple posts down)

and now folks...its time for something light and fluffy

Bon Voyage America

Bush signed it into law today - the Military Commissions Act…

“…the legislation allows President Bush or Donald Rumsfeld to declare anyone — US citizen or not — an enemy combatant, lock them up and throw away the key without a chance to prove their innocence in a court of law. In other words, every thing the Founding Fathers fought the British empire to free themselves of was reversed and nullified with the stroke of a pen, all under the guise of the War on Terror.”

It also states that ‘waterboarding‘ is an acceptable interrogation practice. Ironically, one which the US itself condemned at the end of World War 2 as being unlawful.

-A post from Matthew Good's blog

Leah, Kara and Bailey AND Gooseneck Barnacles and Sea Urchins AND Coffee and cozy warmness inside this mornin

ry's busy making us coffee, the cats and dog just had their breakfasts so they are happy. I'm not sure what doing today..I have to work at 5 tonight for my overnight shift.

When I was in grade uhhhhh 9 I think..I needed a costume last minute...it always seemed to be a last minute thing..anywho My dad had this brilliant idea of me putting on his rain gear and it went from there... We made me a gray beard, painted my tooth black, I wore a fishermans hat and the bright yellow industrial raingear..Nobody recognized me.. Maybe I'll try copy that costume this year. oh i also carried a stick with fishing line attached to it with a cardboard fish on the end. I also like Celeste's bear idea..that would be cute. But I don't know where to start on that one. That fishermans costume was the best ever I doubt Ill ever top that. I feel like going completely disguised though so people will have no idea who I am. Thats how I feel this year.

Anyways Leah, B, and Kara came over on Monday. It was such a nice day we went out for a nice drive along otter point rd...up through the hills and enjoyed the goreous views of the Juan de fuca strait. Then we stopped at a nice beach Bailey had a blast. She wanted to go in the waves..there were some nice waves happening and b would be walking towards them and leah would wooooosh her back just in time and B loved it. I got some nice photos of her and kara and leah. Then we made some butter tarts yummmmmmmmy. and i made the best meat pie eva...just jokin grocery store to thank on that one. Can't wait till you guys come out this way again..you two are awesome people..so genuinly kind, thoughtful and funny...both of you!..and B of course you already know how cute and fabulous u are!!

Then Monday night me and Ry watched some lame movie with an ok stroyline but terrible acting..i dont even remember the name of it. You don't need to know that detail anyway.

Yesterday me and Ry drove out Port Renfrew way and went to Botanical Beach. I absolutley love this place. I am so intrgued by ocean life and this is a fun place to explore all of the cool tidal pools and the sealife in them.. We also like to rock jump. No bears this time...that is a good thing..The last thing I want to see face to face on a trail is a bear actually no a cougar would be worse. I got some awesome great pics when at Botanical Beach.

If you aren't from here. You may have heard of the West Coast Trail or Juan De Fuca trail for multi day hikes..Well the Juan De Fuca trail ends at Port Renfrew(where we were) and the West Coast Trail begins on the other side of the river from Port Renfrew...The West Coast Trail is world famous I think ..I d like to do it one day..It is a tough hike..you need to be well prepared.

Can't wait to go back to Botanical Beach again and walk from Bay to Bay admiring all the cool sandstone and sealife. Its pretty neat to have this so close....

heheh i have to add this in Ry just brought me pancakes..one in an 'L' shape and another in a heart...hehe too cute. oh Rynin.

Go here to see some photos from Botanical Beach

or here to see some from Leah, B, and Kara's visit

Lock up your garbage and pick up your apples! Leah, Kara, and B are coming tomorrow!

Leah, Kara, and Bailey r coming out to here tomorrow. They haven't been to our house yet so Im real excited! I wish I was more awake to write more but I am not so I am off to bed now. Its my friday but Im gonna go to bed at 9 anyway. Im excited for random sooke missions and r&r ;)

Guess waht though? A bear ran in front of our car on the way home tonight..actually it was pretty close..if ry didnt point it out I prob. would've hit it. But instead I slammed on the brakes and he ran on by... It was neat to see another bear..

Ive only ever seen four in my life and two of them happened in the last week. This one was in front of the Stonepipe..it must have been eating garbage at the pub or something.. Last cahnces for them to stock up on the grub so they are heading down..Lock up your garbage and pick up your apples! OR THE BEARS WILL TAKE OVER!

Work and a visit with B and Lehaa in between

Every Thursday for the past three weeks hanging out with Lehaa and B on my split has been nice. I bring over breakfast and Lehaa makes us all lunch and we have a pretty mellow and relaxing time and a good visit and lots of laughs of course... Lehaa has the best sense of humour. B is so cute and so much fun...I am amazed with how much she changes each week I see her. What a precious little girl she is. I love her to bits! It was cute to see B get all giddy when her show big comfy couch came on...she is saying more and more new words each time I see her. I love her hi... "hallo"....so cute! and "up-pease"...or "all dum"...and "titty"(referring to the cats)..Thanks lehaa I love our thuper thursdays

When a few weeks turn into months

I miss a friend of mine. We have been friends since we were born, as our parents have always been best friends...we've always been in and out of eachothers lives, but we always manage to keep in touch and start up again where we left off. Well its been quite some time since Ive spoken to her....we've played phone tag a few times..but now its been so long that it just seems harder and harder to connect as the time passes us by...we need the time to sit and catch up ..it would prob.. be a long conversation since we havent spoken in forever. So I really hope we talk soon..I miss her and she's pregnant and I want to be around during this special time in her life.

I just found out that you read my blog! I got your call this morn and I was so happy to hear from you. I hope you are doing well I think about you lots. I miss u in my life. We will connect soon! Lets both be more persistant this time. Love. xox

mmmm bread and the imposter kitty

I am making a loaf of bread. It will smell good in about 2 hrs. I have only made bread once before and it was three days ago and I don't think I was exact enough with my yeast measurement cause the loaf was really short. It did taste good though. I made stew and we dipped my nice homemade bead in it. Ryans nanna gave us their breadmaker. I think I like the smell the best. Thanks Leah for introducing me to how easy making bread in a breadmaker is.

There is a kitty imposter on our porch and he knows our cats through the glass and they swat at eachother but they just hit at the glass because our cats are inside and the imposter cat is outside. He wants to be friends with Ike and Meekah. Ike is interested and Meekah is not.

I was listening to some podcast things off Matthew Goods blog also I was interested in some things he has written and some of his drawings on his flickr page.









I love all the quotes Kara put up..this one especially stands out:

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.
-Confucius

since theres no bear footage lets watch Ike clean Meekah instead...I took this video this morning...silly cats

Ike cleaning Meekah

My nephew Owen ('Owie', 'O', or 'O-ster')

He's growing up so fast. He is so cute I love him and miss him. Hopefully we'll get up to Nanaimo next week and we can get some good quality Owey time in. Here's a recent photo of him that my sister sent us.

Little black bear

This morning when I got out of bed ( it was approximatly 7am), I was opening the curtains in our bedroom and looking out the window, which looks out to our backyard and the large empty lot behind us, which is surrounded by Blackberry Bush. During the wet months, a creek flows down alongside our property line, through the lush forest and down towards the lot behind us. When loking out I saw our bear wondering around the grass feild in the empty lot. So I quickly went to find the camera and two seconds later the bear was gone. So our bear seems to be living and feeding on all the berries out back. He is keeping to himself and going about his business I do not mind at all. We will take Tessa out into the backyard on her leash and we will keep our garbage in the shed. I hope the bear is safe and that nobody hurts him. He should probablly head up to the forst soon though cause they might end up having to move him or maybe even shoot him. That would suck big time.

Inner Peice

I am very content with life...I am happy with how everything has ended up. Its weird. At this moment I am taking a distant look at what my life looks like and Hmmm Im begging to realize, this is something I do not really think about. Looking close at your life from a different perspective. Like from the outside in. I am so used to living my life each day that I don't really pay attention and see closely what people might think of me. What type of person am I. But I try not to worry about what other people think of me. I guess its not really our business what other people think about us. I don't mean this in a way that you don't have to consider another's feelings but just that we need to be ourselves and not worry about if others will like us or not. It doesn't really matter. Each person will attract and find the necessary people, the people who they need in thier lives, and ones to learn from along the way and those special friends who know you very well and care about you and who each see you in slightly different lights. It takes a while to get used to when there have been a lot of big changes Just refecting on how different my life was was even a couple of years ago. I feel like I can relax and enjoy life. I am totally at ease. I am learning who I am more each day and love the journey of life. I forever will be figuring out who I am and trying to become the best person I can be and live a very happy life with inner peice. Me and Ryan have accomplished so much together and have so much to be proud of. More importantly our relationship but also moving into our first house in which we both have worked so hard for. Getting married is a wonderful thing. It doesn't end there though by any means. Inner peice is something I will work towards my entire life..and there will be endless obstacles along the way. When you are married it does not take away any of your own personal issues. It is a partnership in life. It is love. It is also having your special time together, together with eachother's friends and families, but also individually with one another's friends and families. Keeping ones individual life is so important. I know this for myself anyway. Spending time with friends without your partner there. Doing what each person feels like doing in that moment. Respecting one another's desires. Let your partner be who they are and more importantly, let your partner become who they are meant to be.

Welcome back hockey we missed you! Good game one Canucks!

As most of you already know, The Canucks beats Detroit 3-1 this evening..A great start to the season I must say. Welcome back Hockey we missed you:)

BTW there was a bear in our backyard. yah yah I know...I already said that but, I am still excited alright?

Bear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where????? IN OUR BACKYARD!!!!!!!!!!Get the camera!!

So I am hanging out at Leah's on my split today and my cell rings ....Its Ry...

Linds: Hey

Ry:ahh Hi

Linds:Whats wrong?

Ry:Im a little stunned

Linds:what happened! is everything ok? whats goin on?

Ry:I was on the computer in the backroom and I see something outta the corner of my eye and think its just like a cat or something and I look up and its a BEAR IN OUR BACKYARD!!!

Lindz:OH MY GOD YOUR JOKING..is it still there? DID U GET PICTURES?! are the dogs inside? you better tell the neighbours!

Ry:conservation officer was called I don't know where it is now..oh there's our neighbour outside I should go and tell her

Lindz:ahhh ya that may be a good idea....their dogs are always outside!!!! HURRAY!!!for the love of god hurrey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ry:kay call me back...

meanwhile....... me and Leah are in shock over the news! I call back 5 min later.......and bear has dissapeared don't know where it went ....neighbour took dogs inside...

Weird a bear was in our backyard...I believe it wasn't long ago I was saying I love living out here so close to the woods ....as long as a bear or cougar doesn't come visit...but I WAS kinda jokin...i never really though it would happen...and it was about 10 feet from our back door. I am not kidding. I wish we got photos and that I was at home. I would be exstatic .....maybe a little scared if I was outside..they are way more scared of us though. Really there's not much to be afraid of..keeping your animals safe is prob. the most important.
BUT WHOA! Crazy stuff! unfortunatly no photos:( so sad

warning: dialogue not guaranteed to 100% accuracy due to a delayed documentation of event

The big move

My parents and aunt have been helping my grandparents (on my dad's side) move over from West Vancouver. Both my dad and his sister were raised in West Van. and my grandparents have not moved away from West Van....until now. So its a very big deal and involves a lot of work and a variety of emotions..My parents and Aunt have been working so incredibly hard on helping out. They have handled everything so perfectly with feeling out every situation and being very respectful and caring and they have made this move go as smoothly as it possibly could have. My grandparents will step foot into their new home this afternoon..everything in place..all their things unpacked. They also have a view of a lake. I am blessed to have the family that I have. I can't wait to hear how it all went today and I wish I were there.

Our work in progress on our backyard...

the rest of our sat night pics...from start to finish!

the view from sister Alison's apartment

us getting ready and playin around with the camera

Harray! then Leah and Erika arrived:)